in one of my dreams,
i was with your pre-
pubescent self at our school
at night.
it was raining
and you didn’t want to tell
anyone
but i figured it out.
i’m always so much wiser
in dreams.
last night, i dreamt
you were in the hospital.
you led me by the wrist
around your ward.
at exactly 1 pm you got in your bed
and told me it was happening.
i held your hand as you
turned very hot then very cold.
the others arrived,
then you were gone.
when i wake, i am unsure
what really happened
and what was only in my head.
so much of what really happened
is only in my head.